My collection of saved drafts are probably the clearest depiction in my brain: A lot of amazing ideas, stories of thought and virtue and songs of the struggles of the average working woman— ALL UNFINISHED.
I could delete it, but sometimes, I like to glance at them again and try to decipher what was going on in my head, in hopes that the train of thought would come again.
I want write and ramble, but my mind is blanking and the inner critic is shooting down ideas before they even gave birth. So, I’ll just cuddle next to eeyore and fall asleep thinking of ideas.
8th March, Saturday (12:10am) Reblog +
How do I even begin to describe these adventures and how I feel about meeting you @jasmine_ismyname ? These aren’t even half the pictures I have of us and you! May you continue to shed light wherever u go, cuz u definitely lit up mine ❤️Until you return for our next adventures… #loveyou #sisters #adventureisoutthere #comebacksoon #thisisAMAZING #adopteddaughter #HAPPYtravels (at Union Station)
You truly are talented @jasmine_ismyname you’ll always have a family here in Cali ❤️ @simonnneeee wish u were here! #comebacksoon #adopteddaughter #cheerstothefuture #loveyou
How do I unwrite the past? How do I undo the mistakes? How do I unlove you…
Yes, I’m quoting Toni Gonzaga (probably the only Filipina actress on TFC that has my respect and admiration) but why do the words ring so true?
It’s been four years. I’ve made so many mistakes. I’ve accomplished so much and most of all, I’ve grown and learned so much about myself, set goals for myself and now I know what I want in a partner. I didn’t exactly deal with my heartbreak the right way, but I’m finally in a place where I can smile and make memories with the besties without the need for male validation. But deep within, I miss him.
I miss the way he talked with his hands and push up his red glasses. I miss how his eyes lit up when he’s happy about something and when he sings, he closes his eyes and let’s his heart pour out into the lyrics. I miss that we didn’t talk about petty things. He taught me how the beat and background is just as important as the lyrics to attract a listener. He taught me how to think for the future and how to have goals so that there’s something to strive for. I introduced to him to another style of clothes and how important our culture is to our individual identification. He was mine and everytime he left for school, I cried as if I will never be whole until he returns to me.
I’m sorry I was manipulative and selfish. I’m sorry I was stubborn and didn’t want to listen even when I knew deep down you were right. I always sought to win an argument, and if I felt myself losing, I used a breakup as an ultimatum. I’m sorry about fighting over the stupidest things like being a sore loser at brawl, or whether a woman can be a priest. And most of all, for endangering our future in education and our relationship with God and our families. It still haunts me til this day, if I wasn’t so effin difficult and childish, and if I was more understanding, supportive, and patient, if we would still be in love and partners.
I will never admit this to you in person, but I still love you. I believe so much in you that it’s ridiculous for someone who’s been battered brutally by love like me to still have strength to love you. One day I’ll have the courage. Just today’s not the day
5th March, Wednesday (1:20am) Reblog +
Love & Misadventure is available online via Amazon, BN.com + The Book Depository and Barnes & Noble, Kinokuniya, Books Actually, Fully Booked and other good book stores worldwide.
What Your Favorite Color(s) Says About You
Red: The color of strength, health, and vitality, Red is often the color chosen by someone outgoing, aggressive, vigorous and impulsive—or someone who would like to be! It goes with an ambitious nature but those who choose it can be abrupt at times, determined to get all they can out of life, quick to judge people and take sides. Red people are usually optimistic and can’t stand monotony; they are rather restless and not at all introspective, so they may be unaware of their own shortcomings. They find it hard to be objective and may blame others for any mishaps. Quiet people with a preference for red may feel the need for the warmth, strength and life-giving qualities of the color, or they blanket their true feelings under a sober exterior. Red is usually chosen by people with open and uncomplicated natures, with a zest for life.
Red <3 Passionate. Strength. Zest for Life. Sounds about right ;)
4th March, Tuesday (7:33pm) Reblog +
You’re not in love with me, not really, you just love the way I always made you feel. Like you were the centre of my world. Because you were. I would have done anything for you.
3rd March, Monday (6:49pm) Reblog +
— Abby McDonald, Getting Over Garrett Delaney (via psych-facts)
YESSSS. 😁 #treatyoself #girlswhoread #divergent #insurgent #allegiant #newadventures